Welcome.

Well hello everyone.

I am truly grateful I have worked up enough courage to start to write. I have been keeping up with a few people's blogs and it seems to really help heal the soul. I feel that many people enjoy writing to express feelings of sadness or loss. Others pure happiness and love. I plan on writing of both.

I suppose I will get on with it then...

Me: I am 20 years of age and living away from home. As of about 6 months ago, this was what I thought I wanted. A new beginning that I thought I could not find at home. Well, fate kicked my butt on this one. A college junior should not know who they wanted to spend the rest of their life with, but I do. I fought against it as hard as I could have, but to no avail. I found that someone, randomly, one spring semester at a community college before I was leaving for a new school, 2 hours away. I did not want anything like this, and either did he. Bad relationships, for both parties. Being hurt deep within the heart. We had an understanding of each other. Neither wanted a serious relationship, just something to ease back into the reality of dating and new loves.

[Serious] would be an understatement. Nothing but wonderful. I see myself marrying this man of mine. More of a man than anyone I have ever been with. Truly wonderful, how happiness fell into my lap. What do they say? The things we are not looking for but long for always find us at the worst times... something like that.

Mom: Three words.

One Amazing Woman.

My mother; beautiful, smart, caring, and honest. Many things we all hope to achieve in life when we all "grow" up. Some people say they never want to turn into their mothers. I would love to be just like her. She cooks with no fear. No recipes. Comes up with it off the top of her head. A top chef. Weird. Compassion for many. A teacher. A member of the zipper club. A (survivor]. An astonishing listener. A mother. A little too honest. A Best Friend. A sister to 3 brothers. A spitfire. My awesome mother. And most of all, independent. Perfection. Great qualities to possess in this world today. Where did she learn to be this way?....

NaNa* Four words.

The Original Amazing Woman.

Nana bird: a widow. a true half to her soul mate. High School sweethearts they were. Through thick and thin never doubted there love.

I want a love like these two love birds had. I'm not saying what the had was not easy. But they loved each other enough to work. Work hard. Through ever trial that tested their will and love. They succeeded. Though her soul mate no longer walks on this plane, he is with her [and us] everyday. I am grateful to have this wonderful lady in my life. My original roommate. We kept each other company after [his] passing. Truly mended the heart a little bit, I like to think I helped. [i hope i did].

Another woman with no recipes. Although, a little more hesitant when it comes to "winging" it. A true craftswoman. Perfect helper for late homework projects. Those stupid shoebox displays on silly books. She always strived for the [ A ] and got it. {thanks again}

An example of a strong woman. Took her life into her own hands and did what she needed to do in order to be happy. I envy her courage. I could only dream of being as strong as she is. If I were her, my Nana, I never would have left. The memories in the home they grew to love for so many years. The clothes he wore everyday, the shoes, the silly robe. Would all still be out, If I were her.

but i'm not. ... yet

My sisi ; ]

a true person. worries about small and silly things. then again. i worried of all the same things. high school. the END of the world when someone bad talks you. FACT: no one is ever the same after high school. FALSE: you are always going to be the person you were in high school. you decide who and what you will make of yourself. i have come to accept that it does not matter how you get your dreams, or how long it may take, just as long you achieve them. She will in time, learn this. Just as i have taken many years to fully comprehend and accept this FACT

My Jack[]

A beautiful achievement of how it does not matter how long it takes to achieve a dream. A sweet savior on this earth. a tangible, cuddly, warm, witness of a miracle. This bundle of happiness and chaos saved my amazing woman, my mother. Someone obviously knew this little boy would change the world someday. Many times over. He has already done this. I'm just waiting for the world to be affected.

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