so crossroads, where do i go?

So,
been busy with school work and such. i just have to say that i went home a couple weekends ago and it was absolutely perfect and much needed. spent time with my little bro jack and sometime with dankle and mommy. missi was in a haunted house as an actress. she was very good. she even incorporated making fun of me in her little skit. it was pitch black and i knew my face was terribly red. haha.
its now time to decide what the hell i am doing with my life. if i don't get into the nursing program here at temple what do i do? do i stay and change my major? do i transfer yet again? or should i just go home and stick out two guaranteed years in nursing at a community college?... (that i was already a student at)
please shoot me.
have i again wasted money? i swear, i'm such a fuc* up. i'm busting my little butt to do well here. i really need good grades. i have a 3.3 gpa right now and they are accepting people with3.5. after these two semesters it will all be decided. what to do what to do.
i miss my pop. he never would have let me go here. or even go away in the first place. i would be at PSU right now most likely. always regretting not doing what i wanted. probably still with the ex though. not cool. i guess its in my stupid blood to make all the wrong decisions before i make one right. i'm happy i'm here in philly. i always said i wanted to live here. everyone has such a cool style and what not. i'm still trying to get mine back. so,crossroads,where do i go?
I have some decisions to make.