tech center nights ...

everyday i think of awesome things to write about or ask and when it comes to sitting down and writing them i can't remember a thing! how annoying.

i'll start with there only being 8 class days left... homework is piling up and the stress is building. i had my last biology lab tonght and it was a wonderful feeling. just a taste of what it will feel like when all my classes are my last. i'm so ready for summertime and being with my jacky boy and family...and best of all i'll be making money again. yay! : )i just spent the past 3 hours in the tech center studying for my math exam tom. i'm trying so hard in this stupid freaking class.. it's sad but all i want is a C or better. grr... frustrating. i hate math... let me repeat. I HATE MATH. i'm almost done...i'm almost done. lol. this coming friday i have my africa current events project due. it originally started out to be a 10 minute speech and a 5 page paper. it has now dropped to a 3-5 minute speech, powerpoint and a 1 page summary. my topic is adoption policies and problems in Ethiopia. heads up joe teel, they are shady over there...(haha)

let me premise the africa class... i sit in the back row with the only other white kids. (3) in total. no big. my teacher is from Ghana and i MUST address her as aunty nanna. her name is Nanna Abarry. she has a thick accent and she does not know which words to use to express what she is talking about. so the whole class is wheel of fortune, african themed. i text three people during this calss... Kendall who enjoys what they are trying to brainwash me with. My mom, who prays for me and tells me to keep quiet and Danille who tells me i need to be placed in a hippie class. i totes agree with her. in this class we have taken 2 tests. but she swears they are only quizzes. last week we just took our midterm. with 2 weeks of class with. the point of a midterm is a test given MID-TERM. now we are starting the presentations on friday. 30 kids in the class and one full week of class left. not getting done. and ps, still have to take 1 more quiz then the final. this woman is delusional. its comical. what is my plan you ask? the white freckled irish girl that sits in the back row drawing her mermaid tatto? tell the teacher my step-step-step-whichever it is grandfather is the descendant of a royal french family heralding from the ivory coast. where they perfom blessings and naming practices... the whole kit and kaboodle. a whiteys gotta do what a whiteys gotta do. i have no shame. please don't judge ...

so it is now 2am and i am still lingering at the tech with LaBra and bunnie, who have taught me everything i needed to know about african american hair. let me tell you, i have learned the ways of the weave,lace front weaves,tracks,pieces,and just straight up wigs. not to mention micros, dookey braids and twist offs. i rock the memebers only jacket of the hair world. lol. if you have some spare time, and looking for a window into the world of hair, i suggest watching Chris Rocks movie "good hair". i laughed my ass off.

i must say, i would not change a thing about my decision about coming here. i know it was a very expensive mistake (and potentially dangerous) but i would never have been able to rest peacfully without giving this a try. i have made some really great friends and plan to keep them. i am not afraid to visit, its just too much Philly is a lot to handle for me. i like being able to visit for a weekend then get to go home to a safe and clean environment. lol... snobby?

This past week was the three year anniversary of the shootings at Virginia Tech. My friend Priscilla from Immaculata,well her brother was the last to be killed by the killer. he was a member of the ROTC and he was going to take down the assailant but was caught in the cross fire. It took her a very long time to tell us about her brother being there. she only told a few of us late one night in the chapel on school ground. we found her there alone just sniffling quietly. it was a sad night and i realized everyone has shared in [pain], not the same circumstances but still a broken heart. from that moment on i knew exactly what to say to her and how to comfort her. i am good with stuff like that. i love her dearly and i sent her my favorite poem "all is well". gets me through the dark days, i figured it would help her. she was greatly appriciative.

i miss my nana bird oh so much,along with my entire family that i havent seen in months. the lost crusades, my marine and benyamin, uncle doughnut and derranged(ssssh...haha). i just wish we didn't live so far apart from each other, but i guess thats life. just know that i miss you all terribly.

MAY 15th,2010..... mountain cleanup! Water comes on and everything!!! WOOOOO : )i hope to someday own that house and if not that house then some land and ill build a little cottage, just to keep the good karma going. when i'm up there, i really do feel at peace. i don't miss him as much because i just feel him around. fires and being under the shelter. late nights and drinking. good music and wonderful friends. my throat is burning from fighting back the tears, lol. then again i could blame my red eyes on the hour of earlyness. weird thing, people are just getting here... WHY?!?!? go the fuck to bed! you should have gotten here at 11 so you could be leaving by now!
i'm done with the rant.
i just find myself emotional again. anything could tip me over, its weird. i always cry on my way home from Philly. there is this one billboard and it says "Lehigh Valley is the number one heart health center, We save lives". i can only tear up and thank god that that billboard is true. i am blessed, we all are blessed. we would all be different without that certain woman in our lives, not just her kids and husband. its truly extraordinary the events those 48 hours were. that whole week actually. just amazing, a true miracle.
i guess i get so emotional because ITS SUCH A BORING DRIVE! haha, and no one will talk to me because i am driving.(BS) and i def. won't text, i know better than that.

our jack was a gift, a life saving gift. that is why he has the biggest piece of my heart, and why i will always be there for him. (burning throat again...)

lighter note, this weekend is Blue and White at penn state. i am going with danielle,kendall and mickey. kendall and mick have never been there and danielle and i can navigate with an entire keg in our systems,hot ass magellans, so we will definitely show them a fun time. good thing its a one night gig, i usually can't stomach two nights there. lol.

well, 2:30 has come and past. i should be getting home, but im highly caffeinated.
im the fresh uncle doughnut. : )

until next time... all my love
ktp.